To Lose My Life

I am sat here, looking across the living room towards the Christmas tree in my parents house, it is a rare treat to be at home and to feel somewhat detached from all that has occurred over these past few months. It has now been 12 days since the end of term and I must admit I have neglected any of the tasks I set myself and the assignment work is still looming large over my head. Why have I been so detached from working? I think it has something to do with recharging the batteries of my experience and reconnecting with the world outside of theatre making.

It has been all too easy to throw myself into my art making and neglect the experience of friends and family, the world at large and all that I encounter. So I am now, after many days of working at Harrods and feeling somewhat negligent of my work considering how best to approach it.

This then encourages me to think on the visual essay, which I am doing today, casually, by putting thoughts down onto paper and looking through images connected to my theme. There is an artistry to this work I hope as it is exciting to think of my project as an installation. It is also good time to reflect on practice as I have heard that my Market Estate proposal was not accepted, leaving next year's research task up in the air a little, however, with such a strong group I am sure that it is possible to work hard at the next plan of attack...

Interestingly I have been making lots of apologies of late to friends for my lack of attendance at gatherings and the like, I have been too busy and stressed (I constantly hear myself say) and that is not a good sign - I am setting myself the task of keeping better contact with friends over the coming months and managing my time a little more effectively outside of school and theatre...

I am taking the time to reflect and to recoup. I have also been determined to see more theatre of all sorts and recently went with my parents to see The Misanthrope at the Comedy Theatre. I feel as if I should write a few words on here to reflect as I certainly came away with a lot to say - there are also two arts council reports to read and a funding information sheet - plenty to be getting on with. I must also get to the cinema and see the many films that I have been meaning to see for several weeks now - seeing films is something I have failed at finding time for and must make sure that this does not happen in the new year.